Over the last few days, I've been feeling that something isn't right. But as often happens with me, I haven't been able to put my finger on what. Symptoms have included irratability and slight discontentment with no obvious cause. My life is going well and I'm happy, so what has been going on? As is usual for me, I've assumed there is something rather deep from my past which is "coming up" and therefore have decided this is another great opportunity to clear some past stress in order to align my life with my current wishes and purpose. In the past when this happened, I'd stress out, I'd panic, I'd beat myself up (metaphorically) and even end up depressed, but these days I'm getting more familiar with the process. Here are 3 steps which help me go through this process in a safe way. Step one - breathe. Breath is our life force and the easiest way to free up blocked life energy is to breathe. So when I feel fearful or low or uncomfortable with any emotion, I focus on it and breathe deeply and slowly until the intensity passes. Step two - identify the feelings. It's very easy to say "I feel crap" but it's much more useful to be able to say "I feel frustrated" or "I feel irritated". As the process unfurls, these emotions will change, but I've found that honoring them and accepting them without understanding why I'm feeling them seems to be really important. Step three - notice the thoughts which run through our mind. Eventually I find myself thinking something which clearly doesn't serve me or agree with my conscious awareness. Things like "I don't deserve this" or "I'm no good" are common examples. In my past, I'd go along wtih them and spiral ever more downwards, but nowadays I sit up and take note. I see them as an outdated belief and and an opportunity for change. Kinesiology is a great tool for changing belief systems and I'm lucky enough to be able to work on myself, so I sat down today and did a balance on myself. Now with greater understanding and cleared stress, I'm continuing my day. And I haven't snapped at anything since then.
I was visiting my friend Liz of the Wellbeing Centre yesterday and the subject of blogging came up - both of us being business owners trying to increase our customer base. We both felt we ought to blog, but we had various reasons why we didn't. The main one being not knowing what to write.
I'd been at a speed networking meeting the previous evening and had listened to the eminent Nigel Morgan - king of blogging - speak about how he finds things to blog about and it set me thinking as to whether I really didn't have anything to say. When I chatted to Liz about it it seemed more and more unlikely as I rarely find moments in life where I have nothing to say. How could blogging be so different?
So after dismissing the excuse of no time as not being the reason I didn't blog either - I waste loads of time in other ways, so this really wasn't going to cut it as a valid reason, I came to the realisation that I just didn't belive that people would be interested in what I had to say.
So I thought about where that belief came from and whether it was actually still serving me in my life and quickly realised it definitely wasn't.
So what to write. I thought of a blog I read, which is written by my friend Ali. She writes from the heart and I always find what she writes interesting and inspiring. So I thought if I write about various things that happen, which give me some kind of "aha" moment, maybe other people will find it interesting and inspiring too.
And then I realised I had the material for my "re-launch" blog entry.